Thursday, May 28, 2009

Just a Thought....

"It's not that I'm not happy with the way my life is turning out, the direction that its moving- I'm ecstatic- it's just that sometimes I have to take the time to be sad and mourn for the things that I am not - the path that came to a dead end when the journey was so difficult and the loves in my life that I've lost"

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

All The Fishes In The Sea, They Could Not Be Happier Than Me

Know Why?

You're gonna laugh. 

Or cringe.

I just heard on the radio today that Creed is getting back together

Judge me if you want to but Scott Stapp makes me swoon.  

You either love them or hate them ....

Miss Amber Lane + Creed = swoon

Otherwise the rest of today was nice. I was at my middle of the week perkiest for absolutely no reason - everyone remarked on how peppy I was today. Perhaps it was because I wore tennis shoes and wearing tennis shoes always revives my inner cheerleader. (Note: I NEVER wear tennis shoes unless a busy day of walking occurs so today was an anomile) 

Boo and I watched the season premiere of Wipeout (summer addiction- so funny) and also the series premiere of The Goode Family which I admit was entertaining and struck a note with us but we aren't sure its going to last- as we are sure that prime time network TV is ready for a politically left, animated, sattire. 

Tomorrow is another day and one more closer to another weekend. Hopefully this weekend will be nice and I can spend it lounging pool side and sipping iced teas. But if this week has been any sort of preview of the week to come- its safe to say- its gonna rain. 

Anyhow- bedtime is getting closer and closer and I'm going to need to hop in the shower.

So night, night blog land and big kisses!

Miss Amber Lane

Tonight I'm Feeling: Peppy, sleepy, relaxed

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Jon and Kate Make Me Sad

So as I mentioned; last night I watched the season premiere of Jon and Kate Plus 8.

It was horrible.

I tuned in hoping that all of the media stories were just hype to generate more interest in the show and that Jon and Kate would once again be side by side on their couch bickering over the everyday happenings of their not so normal lives.

No luck. Bennyboo and I sat side by side on our couch - in the same places we were sitting this time last year when we first began to catch up on- and fall in love with the TLC hit - while essentially both Jon and Kate admitted that their marriage had crumbled and that they were in fact, in a very bad place.

It was so sad to watch... and so awkward. Of course I don't know the whole story (only Jon and Kate do ) but I couldn't help but get kind of mad. I was thinking: look what you two are doing- you're throwing it all away- for what? Money? Fame? If I were Kate I would have gotten up off that couch at the end and said, "Thanks for the ride America but my marriage and my family are so much more important to me than this." and then the screen would have cut to black- the end. But no, the show continued - making it painfully obvious that this season is going on seperated or not, happy or not, with Jon or without.

And those poor kids. Can you imagine...if this is really the end- their parents divorce will be documented and shown to all of America- and the little ones do realize what's happening on some level- one of them even told Jon that she didn't want him to go away anymore on camera- how sad is that?

I have to admit- it also scares me. It scares me becuase I have compared myself to Kate Gosselin- organized, particular, anal ... how easy would it be for me to nit pick Boo into misery- will I be a mother so worried and up tight that I drive everyone nuts?

I am beginning to realize as my engagement progresses towards marriage- that relationships are fragile and any tip in the scale could throw your harmony off balance. The divorce rate is so high- I look at my sisters who have been married for many, many years already and think that they are lucky and surely will never get divorced and will I be so lucky? How can I ensure that I never lose sight of who I am, who we are as a couple, and that we always remeber the way that we feel right now- so happy, so in love- can we ever be sure that we won't crumble when there are sure to be so many road blocks on our path?

Its scary- not because I'm scared that Ben isn't the right man for me - I know that he is- have known from the start- I'm scared of all the things that may hurt someday- money problems, infidelity, problems with children, death of our loved ones and one another- its all terrifying. How do we avoid the heartache and just stay crazy in love?

How do you not end up like Jon and Kate ( I mean barring of course the public lives, 8 children, and millions of dollars they are now sure to have) and truly live happily ever after?

I don't know- but I'm sure going to work for the rest of my life to find out.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Its Too Darn Hot

Have I ever mentioned that we don't have central air?

Damn these old townhouses.

Right now we only have one window unit in our bedroom and if we don't shut our bedroom door the bedroom doesn't cool enough for us to sleep well.

We at least have ceiling fans in every room but when its hot and muggy like it has been all day today- there's nothing we can do but sprawl out and dress scantily.

It may be time to move.

Or at the very least buy another window unit or two.

Anyhow I'm off to watch the start of the new season of Jon and Kate + 8 before bed .... scandal be damned... I love them!

Nighty, night!

Amber Lane

We're Back

Miss Amber Lane and Bennyboo from atop a double decker pontoon boat.

Fun weekend- went way too fast.

Back to the grind tomorrow.


On another note- big weekend for couples I know- first Rachel and Brett and now my assistant and her boyfriend announced their engagement yesterday too!

I yi! yi!

Well- more soon- I want to do some laundry and get prepared for another week. Blah!

Miss Amber Lane

Tonight I'm Feeling: Sunburned, tired, relaxed